The Emotional Flat Tire those of you who have been following this blog since I started in March 2012, I’ve been looking for work since January 3rd 2010. That’s nearly 2.5 years or, more precisely, 899 days of unemployment as of this post date.

I’ve been asked a few times if I get depressed for being out of work for so long despite my efforts to find a job. Until recently, my answer has always been no, because I know that even if things get so bad if I end up living in a shelter if the money runs out,  I still have my health and my wits. In addition, getting depressed is not going to change my employment status. The only thing that will change it is continuing my job search.

Note that I said “until recently”. At the beginning of this month, I came across what could be my very first “emotional flat tire”.

I don’t know when the warning signs started, but I suspected they appeared shortly after a conversation with my new contact with Career Foundation after my current one left for new opportunities. I won’t mention this new person’s name, so let’s call her “Aileen”. I gave Aileen a phone call to arrange for a time to meet to discuss what things I should implement in my job search. I got the impression Aileen was not having a good day because, unlike many others at Career Foundation who are generally very cheerful and polite, she was terse and abrupt with me. She suggested that I take the workshop courses to enhance my job search. My reply to that was that I already took the interview critique, resume writing, and hidden job search workshops, which are the big three everyone looking for work should take, and I needed something new to try since I had a few months of savings left. Before I could finish, she snapped at me that “Career Foundation is not here to give you a job, that’s your responsibility!”. Normally, I would have handled that in stride. I know how to handle rude people both in the workplace and in my private life. While I was not angry with her in kind, I was upset. I told her and later the branch manager of that Career Foundation office that I wanted my file closed. Boom. A year as a client of theirs done.

I don’t regret that decision, as Career Foundation had stopped being a valuable source of information for my job hunting. I was getting the same advice I already knew on how to find a job and my previous contact before Aileen stopped arranging meetings with me. I just could have handled the parting of ways better.

That incident with Career Foundation was not the only warning sign, it was actually one of many to come.

Some friends of mine treated me to a movie (“Marvel’s The Avengers”) for my birthday, and I was looking forward to seeing it. Well, I think I was looking forward to seeing it, or maybe I was trying to psych myself up for it because I should have been looking forward to it, but wasn’t. Throughout the movie, while everyone cheered and laughed, I found that I really wasn’t enjoying it. It wasn’t because it was a bad movie, it was in fact a fantastic movie. It’s just that deep down inside me there was some stirrings of excitement and humour bubbling about, but it was not reaching the surface for some reason. A few of my friends noticed this and asked if I was feeling okay. I told them I was fine and thanked them for being great friends for treating me on my birthday. They were satisfied but I knew I was not. Something was wrong.

My malaise leaked into my regular morning job search routine. I had trouble getting out of bed at my usual time to read the newspaper classified. I didn’t search as aggressively on Monster, Workopolis, and the other search engines for job openings. I did not renew my Craigslist and Kijiji “David Needs A Job” and “Looking To Automate Some Tasks?” ads, so both sank down into obscurity. I also stopped posting to my this search blog: that’s why there is nearly a month long gap between this current post and the last one on May 30th.

It got to the point where even the simpliest efforts felt like major chores to complete and the things that used to bring me joy stopped doing just that. One day I just said “blazes with this” and did not look for work. In fact, I didn’t do anything for a few days.

But that’s okay. It was needed. It was necessary. While I can’t remember every little thing I did during those few days, most of it was going out for walks searching inside myself for answers. I guess you could say I was going through a bit of an internal reset trying to figure out where things derailed. I can’t say if I found the answer to everything but after a bit of walking, talking to those who had personal life issues that were far greater than anything I was going through, and taking a more realistic assessment of my options, I got over my blue funk. The next day I was back at my regular job search routine as if nothing happened. I signed up at St. Stephens House Community Centre for job search assistance.  My Kijiji and Craigslist ads have been renewed.  I have been on a number of interviews, and found new people to network with.

I know that this won’t be the last time I’ll have “emotional flat tire” days like this, but at least I have an idea of what to do if it does happen again, and that is to take a day off the job search beat to take a perspective break.

Thanks for reading


P.S. I went back to watch “Marvel’s The Avengers” a second time. This time, I really did enjoy the film.

UPDATE, July 18th, 2012: A fellow who runs an excellent job search blog captured perfectly how I felt on that day I got the emotional flat tire.  I suggest you follow his blog on a regular basis.

Warning: Just like the gentleman cautions, there’s some “potty-language”.

Even Clint Never Wrote A Program!

Having looked for work for a little over 2 years now, I am familiar with the year-round hiring cycles. This is the part of the year I hate: summertime.

I have nothing against summer as a season. It’s just that companies start to ramp down their hiring needs around this time of year. Everyone has the cottage, camping, and vacationing on their minds. It usually does not pick up again until around September. This is not a good thing: I can’t afford to hit a dead end in my job search because no one is hiring!

I’ve made it clear in my job search ads on Kijiji and Craigslist that I am not interested in being an entrepreneur. I want to work for someone (be it an individual or a corporation) and not be, to use the term “my own boss”. In the same breath, however, my job search has evolved over time to include methods I would never have considered. When I first started looking for work in January 2010, I stuck to the core approaches to look for IT-only jobs: newspapers, networking, and the job search engines like Monster.Ca and Workopolis. As time went on, my job approach was modified to include the aforementioned Craigslist and Kijiji, and now I am looking for practically any opening available. Now it’s time for my approach to change yet again. I’ve decided to try my hand as a “hired gun”.

Before the theme song of “The Good, The Bad, And The Ugly” starts playing in your head, let me explain that a hired gun is someone who loans out their services for a fee to anyone interested in getting something done. I previously hinted at doing such work in my Kijiji and Craigslist ads (search on “David Needs A Job” in the City Of Toronto section) when one of the things I was willing to do was come to someone’s neighbourhood to clean out a public area (like a park) that people are sick of seeing full of trash.

I was unsure what services I was going to do as a “hired gun”, as most of my work in my 20 year IT career involved working on assets that were fixed in their location, such as SAP instances and Iseries midrange systems. Even the programming languages used on those two systems are unique to them. It was not until I remembered doing Winbatch programming at my last job. Winbatch, for those of you not familar with the programming language, is a Windows-based language meant for automating tasks on a Windows PC (client or server) originally handled by users. It has a programming syntax and IDE very similar to that of Visual Basic.

After coming up with an hourly rate that I considered reasonable, I created an ad on Craigslist and Kijiji. You can find them both under “Looking To Automate Some Tasks?” if you do a search. There’s a lot of ads from other “hired guns” (I don’t remember the Old West ever being this crowded!) so I’m not sure it will be noticed, but then again, nothing ventured, nothing gained.

I’ll keep you posted on how successful this segment of my job search goes as time permits.

Thanks for reading!



UPDATE June 24, 2012: So far, I haven’t been hired as a contract programmer but I have received a lot of replies. The problem, however, is that some people need to take the time to read the ad before replying. Consider the following response (I removed some parts of the ad to hide the actual names):

Hello,I am a divorced 35 Years old man and am searching for a Nanny to take care of my 18 Months old son{his name is (removed)}and you will earn $400 weekly.Write me a message if interested so i can give you details.


If you check my ad out on kijiji it has a graphic of some programming code I wrote, and my background as a programmer is decribed in detail. I don’t point this out to mock people, but to stress that replies like this are not helpful to both myself and to the person making the reply.

Not According To Plan

Interviews are not just about the date and time you have to be there by. There’s a lot of preparation involved before going to one. There’s research about the company, made easier thanks to the Internet: what the company is all about, when it was started, what products does it make, what charities it sponsors, and so forth. There’s the practice interview where you try to answer any question asked, either with a friend or family member or in front of the mirror. This includes the tricky questions like “What did you least like about your last position? What are your weaknesses? Why do you think you should be considered above everyone one else for the job? If you were a tree, what type of tree would you be? (I didn’t make up that last question, I actually was asked that during an interview! My answer was “A willow tree because I’m flexible!”)”. You wrap it up by making sure you know where the place is and how long it takes to get there, again thanks to the amazing power of the Internet. I used to rely on a pocket Perly mapbook to find places, but now Google Maps is my best friend.

If you prepare the way I did as shown above, 99% of the time the interview will go according to plan, and all that is left is to wait for the result. There are times, however, it will not go according to plan. In some cases, it will feel like it went as badly as that exploding Delta 2 rocket launch picture I embedded in this blog post. I’m going to share with you today the only two examples of my two year job search where an interview went wrong and, as a fellow jobseeker, how you should handle things after all is said and done.

As I said, out of the many, and I do mean MANY, interviews I’ve been on since I started looking for work in January 2010, two interviews went horribly wrong. Both share a common reason of why they went wrong: I never made it to either place, despite researching where the place was on Google Maps and how to get there with more than enough travel time required.

The first happened in February of 2011, where I had an interview at an IT consulting company in Toronto that catered to clients using SAP. Seeing I had SAP experience at my last position (as a BASIS Administrator and an ABAP/4 programmer), I previously applied for a job opening at that company. I was later contacted by a senior project manager who, though a little brusque, seemed like someone I could work for. He offered a place on his team for a six month contract position but he needed to interview me first to make sure I was “a fit”. I went through the standard preparation for the interview that I always do: the mock interview, the research about the company and what clients the company did SAP migrations and installations for, where it was in Toronto and what bus route I needed to get there. I also heard on the radio that a snowstorm was going to hit Toronto on that same day, so I added one hour to my travel time to make sure I was not going to be late. As a precaution, I took my cell phone with me in case I needed to call. When that snowstorm did hit, while it was not the worst snowstorm in Toronto’s history, it was enough to throw a monkeywrench in my bus commute. Despite my preparations, including factoring in the storm, traffic on the road was slowed to a crawl and I was going to be late. I called the project manager on the cell phone to let him know I was going to be late. To say he was upset in his response was an understatement. He railed over the phone that I “was playing games with his time” and that I was “not serious about the position or the project”. I tried to apologize and offered to come again the following day. He told me in these exact words, “don’t bother” and hung up. Maybe he had a rough time getting to work that morning because of the storm, or maybe the planning of the project was getting to him. It didn’t really matter. It took everything I had just to keep my composure as I got off at the next stop and turn around to go back home.

The second part happened this month (May 2012). Apparently a CEO saw my Kijiji ad and read my blog and my videos and offered an interview for a position at her video company. The hours were during the evening but I did not mind. I did a lot of night shift computer operations work in the early 1990s and my attitude was “if I had the skills to do the job, I’ll do it”. Again, I made the preparations as above and was ready to go. When I arrived at the intersection shown on Google Maps, with plenty of time to spare, I couldn’t find the darned place. Was Google Maps wrong? There was a lot of construction in that area, so was a sign being blocked? I spent half an hour looking for the place. I asked people nearby if they heard of the company and the address but even with their help I still could not find the place. I took out my cellphone to call the CEO to inform her of my situation, and as Murphy’s Law would have it, the cell phone battery died. I went back to the subway station and called from a payphone to tell her I was having trouble finding the office and that I was sorry. Since she had a meeting about some production work that evening, I told her I would be happy to come back on the following day for the interview. She replied that she was not going to be free until the following Tuesday, but we agreed to meet on that day at the same time for the interview. I felt I resolved that professionally but I also got the impression she was unhappy that I did not show up. This feeling was further underscored by the lack of response to an Email that I sent her confirming the date and time of the rescheduled interview. On that following Tuesday, I received an Email (not a phone call) two hours before my interview was to start that the position was filled, and that Email was sent by another person within the same company. I won’t lie to you when I say I was disappointed with how that was handled.

In both of these cases, these were situations where I had no control over the outcome. I prepared, I planned, I rehearsed. It just didn’t go as expected. While I was not happy with how things went, I didn’t beat myself up over it. As Alexander Graham Bell once said:

“When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us”

Wise words. I can’t change what happened in what is now the past, but there are still opportunities ahead for me to take. I can’t afford to have a pity party of what was, at the expense of what I could have. It’s time to move on.

Despite these setbacks I will keep trying to get a job, and for those of you who have found yourselves in the same situation as myself — for any reason– you should keep trying too. There is no shame in failure through trying, but there is shame in failing to try.

Thanks for reading!


Once Again, Being Unemployed Is Not A Crime

I’ve been following, with great interest, the news about changes to the Employment Insurance Plan here in Canada. I’m not currently on EI, so that was not the reason why I was following this story closely. What got my attention was the following statements Finance Minister Jim Flaherty made at the press conference:

“There is no bad job, the only bad job is not having a job. I drove a taxi, I refereed hockey. You do what you have to do to make a living.”


“We are going to have significant labour shortages in this country. That means we are going to have to encourage more persons with disabilities to work, more seniors to work, more aboriginal people to work, including young people. We need to get rid of disincentives in the employment insurance system to people joining the work force.

-source: but the underlining added by me for a reason.

Mr. Flaherty, respectfully, what do you think that I and other unemployed Canadians have been doing? We are already doing just that. We are trying to get any type of work we can to keep a roof over our heads and food on our table. What you just said implies that I, and others who are unemployed, are lazy and do not want to work.

Let’s use for example how hard I’ve been looking for work over the last two years. In addition to applying for jobs in my chosen field of information technology (of which I have experience in for 20 years), I’ve also applied for the following jobs (this is a sample of an even larger “hit list”):

  • •Internet Café Cashier
  • •Accounts Payable Clerk
  • •Home Depot Floor Worker
  • •Insurance Broker
  • •Goodwill clothing store sorter
  • •Any type of work in Fairmont Hotels (cleaning, bellhop, etc)
  • •Dog dropping scooper in a park (I was told I was overqualified)

On top of that, I go through the want ads in the newspapers every morning at 7:15 a.m., the time my job search starts. I network with friends and former co-workers. I’m registered on various job search portals and the Canada Job Bank to apply for jobs. I went to Career Foundation for workshops on resume writing and interviewing. I use Indeed, CareerDoor, and even have an ad on Kijiji and Craigslist. I have a Youtube Video and a Google+ video, and I chronicle my job search efforts on my blog. While I am still out of work, It is no contest when I say I’ve taken extraordinary steps to find work. Yet, the impression I am being left with after listening to the Finance Minister is that somehow I, and many other unemployed yet extremely qualified individuals, are lazy because we are out of work and haven’t tried enough.

I wrote in my previous blog post “Being Unemployed Is Not A Crime” that the issue of unemployment is not easily explained with a simple single sentance. I’m not going to repeat the points here, but I will say it’s a complex problem that deserves more than just a soundbite to fix. I’d like to go over some of the points in Mr. Flaherty’s statements.

He first of all claims that everyone should take any job that comes to them. That on paper is a valid point and, in my case, I have branched out to apply for positions outside of information technology (see above). That’s my choice. However, I am concerned about the message he is sending to our young people and to others who passionately care about their career. When I was in my teens, I was told by those in positions of authority (including the Canadian Government) to consider post-secondary education to get a better job instead of settling for a high school diploma. I took their advice, worked in IT for 20 years, and got my shot. Now I’m hearing someone from the Canadian government say it’s somehow ….wrong?….to try to get into the career of their choice that they spent so much of their money to get trained for. Isn’t that their personal right to do so? To get their shot like I did?

Section VII of the Canadian Charter Of Rights And Freedoms states as follows:

“Everyone has the right to life, liberty and security of the person and the right not to be deprived thereof except in accordance with the principles of fundamental justice.”.

What does this mean? It means freedom to act without restraint, within respect of the law. It also means the power to make personal choices that touch, “the core of what it means to be an autonomous human being blessed with dignity and independence in matters that can be characterized as fundamentally or inherently personal.”. If a person wishes to focus their job search on the field of their expertise, not only is that their choice, it’s their right under the law of the land to do so.

There is also Mr. Flaherty’s argument that there is a shortage of labour in some provinces like Alberta, and people should consider going there to look for work if work cannot be found close to home. Again, valid point, but again, more complex than he thinks. Relocation is a big step, and a decision not to be made lightly. It involves splitting up families and separating those from others who need special care or assistance.

The reason why I would not consider moving to Alberta is that I have no family or friends there to stay with while I get back on my feet. There is also the issue of qualifying for important provincial services. To qualify for AHCIP coverage, for example, one has to reside in Alberta for at least 183 days in a 12 month period. Think about that for a moment. If one decides to go to Alberta to take a new job, and during their first 182 days of residency requires medical care (accident for example), that person has no medical insurance. No insurance, and no one to fall back on in their new home: not exactly a position I’d want myself or anyone else to be in.

There’s also the question of what happens to those provinces that are considered “have-not” status if their population flocks away to where all the jobs go. That doesn’t exactly solve that province’s issues that makes it a “have-not” province, does it? Wouldn’t it make more sense to find a way to make that province prosperous and a generator of good jobs so people would not have to leave in the first place?

A person has the right to decide for themselves where they want to work. Take a look at the Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms (Section VI):

“(2) Every citizen of Canada and every person who has the status of a permanent resident of Canada has the right

a) to move to and take up residence in any province; and

b) to pursue the gaining of a livelihood in any province.”

I underlined point b) for a reason. There are many good reasons why a person would not want to make that decision to leave their city or even their province. Maybe the idea of breaking up a family could prove too disruptive. Perhaps it’s the care of a sick or elderly parent that is keeping that person where they are. Or, hey, maybe they just like where they are. There’s nothing wrong with deciding where you want to be, and to be told that you are not trying hard enough to get a job simply because you do not want to move is, quite frankly, harsh to the point of being uncaring. Your job is a part of a life, but your job should not dictate how you live your life. That choice is up to you.

As I said, the issue of unemployment is a very complex and difficult challenge our society must deal with. It certainly deserves more discussion and thought than the comments presented by our Finance Minister…a member of a government that we elected to solve the unemployment problem in the first place!

Thanks for reading!


The Path Once Not Taken

An example fo replies from my kijiji and craigslist advertisementAs I mentioned in my first blog post, I was returning home from a job fair interview held by Rogers when I realized I was hungry (actually, I was getting the tummy rumbles during the interview,  praying the two men doing the interviewing did not hear it). I decided to get a bite at Tim Horton’s just off the subway line at the Lawrence Square Shopping Centre. Since I still had my newspaper from the morning’s job hunt, I turned to the classifieds to make sure I didn’t miss a job posting. As I ate my impromptu lunch, I circled a couple of ads with my pen that I initially ignored.  At the time, they didn’t seem like something I wanted to go for, but I decided to check them out in tomorrow’s newspaper in case the ad appeared again. As I was doing this, I got the feeling I was being watched and looked around. To my right, there was a gentleman about my age, with a Leafs’ baseball cap and a cheerful look on his face. He said to me, “You out of work?”. Not to come across as rude by ignoring him, I nodded and smiled, tapping my newpaper with my pen. “Me too,” he said. We started talking, and I learned his name was Tony, and he hasn’t had full time work for five years, but managed to keep himself going by doing a lot of odd jobs here and there. I asked Tony where he got the jobs from, and he explained they came from Craigslist and Kijiji. Surprised, I replied, “Really? I thought those were buy-and-sell spots”. He grinned, shook his head and, with hands waving, said “You can get anything you want from those sites, even jobs if you know how to cut out the scams and garbage”

After getting some tips from Tony, I logged on first Craigslist and then Kijiji to get a feel of the two sites after I got home. I never used either service before, though I have heard of both, Craigslist in particular stood out in my mind because I heard a news story about some people who were murdered by others they met through the service. Both Craigslist and Kijiji have a fairly easy-to-navigate site path, though Kijiji’s color scheme is easier on my eyes. Replying to ads and creating your own ads are free of charge on both services. You do not need to create an account to use the service, though I ended up doing so for both because it makes things easier.

I tried looking for some computer-related jobs, but there is really not a lot of IT jobs in both services. Since I did make a change to my job-search parameters in the fall of 2011 to consider applying for non-IT work when offered,  I looked for job advertisements that required no experience. Bingo! A slew of jobs came up, and I went through each one. Note: if you are looking for work as a security officer, there are TONS of advertisements for security at concerts and malls. All you need is to get trained for a license.  Not my kind of work, since I’m only 5’8″.

Some of the ads I got a match were what you would expect from a service where, as Tony said, you can get anything you want. He wasn’t kidding…..

Get Paid For A Good Time (GTA)
Looking for escorts, no experience necessary. Trustworthy, honest, fun, friendly woman wanted. You choose your own schedule! Make big bucks today $$$ Must be 18 +   Email a little about yourself, pictures, experience (if any), ect.

No chance of me getting that job!

The important thing to remember about these advertisements is they use a lot of visualization words but say very little about what the job is about:

Fantastic Opportunity!
A new marketing division has a ground floor opportunity! We are seeking outgoing individuals who enjoy a challenge, are willing to learn, and wish to grow. We offer free training, and outstanding growth capabilities. We are currently developing our marketing managers with inside promotions. No experience necessary.

Sounds like a dream job, right? It probably is, but after following up through the contact link for other job ads I came across, it’s not quite what it seems (quelle suprise!).  I’m not saying they are scams, but a good chunk of these ads that are worded this way are either investment portfolios or running your own franchaise or brokerage. That’s not what I was looking for: I wanted a job that followed the traditional model of going to the office, putting in a good day’s worth of hard work, and then coming home. Over time, I learned to create a list of questions that I would ask that got to the heart of what the job was about when replying to these ads:

Hello. In response to the ad below:
I would like more information about the position you are offering in your company, so here are a few questions I have: 
  • Is it an office or warehouse job, and not a business I run from my home?
  • Does it involve any investment of money?
  • Do I need a car for the position?
  • Is the job within the boundaries of the City of Toronto?
Please reply when you have a moment.
Thanks and have a good day.


This put the author of the ad on notice that I was interested in the job, but at the same time made clear of what I wanted. After I learned what the job was about from the  author of the ad , it was left up to me to decide if I wanted an interview. To be honest, there were a few job positions that did pique my interest enough to go for an interview. Some of the places, to my surprise, were very large corporations. While I did not get any of the jobs offered, I would not consider applying to them a waste of time either. The number of interviews I was getting now, when compared to the time before my meeting with Tony, increased significantly.

I was happy with the increase in interviews, but felt I could get more if I put up my own “Looking For Work” ad. I put up an ad on both Craigslist and Kijiji. If you are interested, you can find them under a search for “David Needs A Job” on both Kijiji and Craigslist. I won’t link them here because I do repost them every three weeks to keep them on top of the match list, which breaks the URL link. The advertisement explains my situation but also makes clear, as mentioned above, about what I wanted for a job. I liked the Kijiji ad more because you could include a picture along with the ad for free.

Some of the replies I was receiving gave me the impression some people cannot, or do not, read. I would get an offer for a job that was the complete opposite of what I wanted. At first I thought it was simply a spiderbot replying en-mass to all the ads but after reminding one person who didn’t bother to read the whole advertisement about what type of job I wanted, I got a response from an actual person. Some of these responses can be quite snarky if they get their noses out of joint after you politely turn that offer down.

Kijiji and Craigslist isn’t the silver bullet that got me the job yet, but it’s one of many options for jobseekers to try, and I will still use it as part of my job search portfolio. If you haven’t considered using either service as part of your own job search, there’s no harm in looking into it for yourself. Who knows, you may get lucky.

Thanks for reading


The Broken, Yet Unspoken, Word

Contract (From the Free Dictionary Website)It’s not surprising many people forget, when they accept a job offer, it’s under an agreement of terms. In some cases it’s a written job description that clearly states what the employee is expected to do while working for the employer, and is signed on the first day of work in the employer’s or HR manager’s office. It’s not that far removed from a signed contract. It can also be less formalized, or even agreed to verbally and not put down on paper, but the employee still has an understanding of what he or she is expected to do from their job description. With that said, what happens if that same employee discovers his or her job description changes to something not agreed to, and does not want to do? While it is a personal judgement call for each employee when faced with this situation, one option the employee will take is resign. This is called constructive dismissal.

According to Toronto Employment Lawyer Karen Zvulony, constructive dismissal is defined “where an employee quits because their employer unilaterally and fundamentally changed the conditions of employment.” It is very important to understand the meaning of this definition. It does not mean the person quit in a hissyfit because they disliked their boss, co-worker, or because the employee had a bad work attitude. It simply means the reason why you took the job was changed to something differnent.

Until recently, I didn’t know that term even existed.  “Constructive dismissal” sounds like an oxymoron: there’s nothing constructive about being dismissed, as being dismissed is supposed to be a bad thing. It’s something that has come to the forefront of the media’s attention in light of the economic collapse of 2008 and the downsizing in the private sector. Employees are being asked to do more for less, with no change in pay, and no thanks for the effort. Their work/life balance is put into chaos and, in some extreme cases, their mental and physical health is put at risk. A part of this comes from employers changing the agreement of the job offer that was understood by the employee.

As I said in the beginning, it’s a personal judgement call for each employee if he or she wants to continue. It sometimes boils down to is the lesser of two evils: keep the job that is pushing you closer to your personal limit, or consider resigning at the risk you may not find a better job. Some employees don’t have a chance to find a new job because their personal time needed to look for a new job is now consumed by their employment. As a result, resigning without a new job to go to is the only solution. It’s easier for a single person to come to that drastic decision since they have no one but themself who will be adversely affected by their decision. Those with families may not have such freedom to choose: the mortgage and children cannot be put at risk so the devil you know is taken.

I find this situation involving constructive dismissal unacceptable. Two-thirds of your daytime involves your job. You see your employer and co-workers more than you see your family and friends. If employees must invest that amount of personal time into work, then it is fair to state:

1) They should like the work they do in order to work there for that amount of time.

2) Both the employee and employer are responsible for honoring the terms of why the employee accepted the job offer in the first place.

I would consider a significant change in one’s job description the same as the ending of the original job and the creation of a new job opening, with duties outlined in the new job. If it were up to me, I would like to see employers handle this situation in the following manner:

  • The employee is told in clear and understandable terms that their job description is going to change, and why it must change.
  • The employee is given the new job description that they are expected to do, if they choose to do so, with compensation for accepting this new change. This compensation could come in the form of increased pay, flex hours, improved benefits, or a change in working conditions that is positive for the employee.
  • The employee is given the choice to do one of the following:
    •  The employee accepts the new job description and understands he or she is responsible for carrying out these new duties.
    •  The employee refuses. This is considered the equivalent of a layoff, and the employer must offer a severance or advance warning of layoff.

As I said in my previous blog post, we need to understand the story behind why a person is unemployed. Constructive dismissal is very difficult to quantify for just reason to leave a job, especially in rough economic times like the one we are in now.  Nevertheless, it must be understood that no employer has the right to unilaterally change the job description of an employee’s position, especially if the employee enjoys the work they do. It’s why they took the job offer in the first place.

Thanks for reading!

Being Unemployed Is Not A Crime

This file comes from Reuters' files  and was displayed on the Vancouver Sun web page.Whenever I tell people I’m out of work and looking for a job, I receive a wide variety of responses: sympathy (if they are emphatic) , understanding (if they too are out of work), indifference (if they frankly do not care), or discomfort.

I don’t understand why some people would feel uncomfortable about the subject of unemployment. I suppose it’s because I’m comfortable with my own transition from gainful employment to being unemployed: what happened made sense, and I felt it was a fitting closure to my last position. Having said this, do not assume I’m lazy. While I am comfortable with what happened, I realize, like everyone else who has not “struck it rich” yet, I need a job that pays the bills and puts food on the table, otherwise I’m homeless. As mentioned in the very first post of my blog, I’ve been trying very hard to find work since the end of December, 2009. I just haven’t found a job yet.

One guess I might make is that it reminds some people about their own tenuous situation at work, and what will happen if they lost their job. I can understand that trepitation. A job supplies income to pay for your children’s care, your mortgage and bills, any emergencies that come up, and so on. If that person closely associates their job with who they are, a job also gives a raison d’être (reason to exist). Fro those people, losing a job means losing purpose in life and, in the most extreme situations, a reason to live.

Part of that discomfort, especially if one has been out of work for so long such as myself, comes from the belief that maybe there is something wrong with the person who is unemployed. Maybe that person got fired, so they deserve to be unemployed. For those people who believe that, I say that’s absolute nonsense. Being unemployed is not a form of punishment. While it is true that being fired leads to unemployment, it’s only one cause of unemployment. Someone unemployed may have been laid off, may have been forced to quit for health reasons or had a boss or co-worker from hell, or have experienced sexual harassment or racism in the workplace. Perhaps it was an issue about their work-life balance because their job was impacting their personal time and happiness. A new situation that has recently come up on the workplace radar is the subject of constructive-dismissal. I’ll address that in the next blog post.

Even if someone was fired from his or her job, I don’t think that should be a permanent roadblock to return to work. I admit there are exceptions to what I just typed: if someone was dismissed from a nuclear reactor facility because lives were endangered, that person should not be allowed to work in future positions that involve public safety. Having said that, that person should still be able to find work in other professions.

Whatever the reason, none of the above should make people consider unemployment like something out of “The Scarlet Letter”. It’s not something to be ashamed of, but recognized as a social problem that needs to be solved, especially if we have a stubbornly high unemployment rate. If you know of someone who is looking for a job, offer them a temp job or at least some job search tips at the most, or words of encouragement at the least. Both will work wonders.

Thanks for reading

P.S. I found some really interesting links regarding why some people quit their jobs that I’d like to share with you, since I touched on some reasons in my blog.

Why Some People Quit Their Jobs

When To Resign

As The World Turns (Over You).


When you are focused on one particular thing in your life — in my case, my job search —- you tend to forget about the other things that are going on about you until you are reminded of them. Some of them come as gentle nudges: you discover you need milk for the morning’s breakfast, you look at a calendar and realize you have to call your mother to wish her a Happy St. Patrick’s Day, or you learn you need to take your suit to the cleaner’s while looking in the mirror before heading out for your interview. At other times, some things you thought were settled and long forgotten suddenly come back at you, and not in a gentle way.

We have a great health care system here in Canada. It’s not perfect and it needs improvement (particularly the issue of wait times), but it’s paid for through the provinces, and there’s no excuse not to go to the doctor if you notice something amiss.

I regularly check the moles on my body for anything that looks out of order, and I have gone to a dermatologist twice in the past when I saw what appeared to be a mole change. Those two concerns turned out to be false alarms and I was commended after each doctor’s examination for taking charge of my health. During the first week of March, I was trying to check out a mole on my back that was in an awkward place. It looked perfectly fine, but it was really getting on my nerves. Have you ever seen a dog chase it’s tail? Have you ever seen a stupid dog chase it’s tail? That’s what I looked like, while standing in front of the mirror, twisting around while trying to get a good look at that mole. I finally said, “This is ridiculous, I’m going to have a doctor look at it close up before I injure myself”.

I went to the medical clinic up the street, where a GP examined me. He said there was nothing wrong with it, but he referred me to a dermatologist just to be safe. 10 days later, I went to that dermatologist, who examined me and said it looked fine, but he recommended removing it because it was over 1 cm in size. He froze the skin on that part of my back and removed it (I didn’t know exactly how and I don’t want to know if he is freezing me). The procedure took just five minutes and he slapped a bandage there, telling me to keep it clean and put PolySporin on it. He then said I would be contacted later if anything came up in the biopsy report.

That part made me worry. “Biopsy report?”, I asked him. “I thought I was fine!”. He said it’s just a precaution to make sure the tissue removed was not undergoing any changes that could indicate cancer. Because I had “job-search-on-the-brain”, I asked him if I should perhaps throttle back on my looking for work until the results come back. Don’t be surprised by that question: the last thing you want to do is apply for a position and later, if hired, explain to your new boss you need to take a leave of absence or even resign if you have to undergo medical treatment. He replied to me that would not be necessary, since he felt the mole was likely non-cancerous but he can’t be positive until the biopsy report returns. He would know the results in three weeks.

So, two doctors tell me not to worry, with the latter removing it as a precautionary double-check for a lab to look at. Fine by me: no more looking like a dog chasing his tail in front of the mirror. Weeks go by and I forget about the mole. Granted, the wound made by the removal of the mole is taking a while to heal, but it does not hurt at all and only bleeds a bit during the changing of bandages and the application of Polysporin, but three weeks go by and no call from the doctor.

Just after the start of the fifth week, I get the following message on my answering machine:

(I edited the name of the clinic and the doctor out, so that is why it skips in some places. Sorry.)

Not urgent my you-know-what. I’ve gone to many specialists in the past, including dermatologists as I mentioned before, and not one has ever called me back just to tell me “You’re fine! Thanks for coming down!”. I called the clinic staff person who left that message,  asking her what the reason was for having to come back. I might as well have tried herding cats in an alley with the runaround I got:

“Hi I’m calling about my test results. The doctor needs to see me?”

“Yes, sir”

“Was it a positive?”

“He didn’t say, he just needs to see you”

“Well it must be bad news if he wants to see me”

“Why are you saying it’s bad, sir!? How can you say this as fact? He just wants to see you!”

“Well, what does he want to see me about, if you know it’s not so bad?”

“Sir I don’t know! It just says here (where exactly is here…on a screen? paper?) that he wants to see you!”

I have a great deal of respect for doctors and anyone else who work in the medical field. They work long insane hours, take care of people like myself, and do not get thanked for their efforts. But I always hated the fact it was a “Snakes And Ladders” game when came to getting test results. I waited 10 days to see a dermatologist. I waited just over 4 weeks to get this answering machine message. Now I have to wait 3 weeks more to see the same dermatologist again for something I can’t be told about over the phone. It’s supposedly not urgent, but the doctor still has to tell me in person rather than make the results available to staff to tell me over the phone.

Now I have this angel of uncertainty yammering in my ear for the next three weeks while I continue with my job search and my course at George Brown College. It’s going to be a distraction for both, but as I said, this blog is supposed to chronicle my job search and distractions like this are a part of the process. It’s a reminder that the world still turns no matter what I’m doing, and sometimes the world can suddenly roll right over you without warning.

I’ll update this blog post on May 3rd once I come back from the doctor with the results. Wish me luck!



Update May 3, 2012: I have the results and I wish I can tell you the news is good, but it is not. I will require a second biopsy to ensure the mole is not cancerous because the sample was incomplete. This is likely because it was a deeper mole than expected, and deepening moles are typical of melanoma, or skin cancer. I have to wait for a local plastic surgeon to contact me to schedule an appointment for a deeper extraction and biopsy.

This will of course affect my job search, as I cannot apply to full time positions while this health scare  hangs over me. I have an obligation to ensure I am capable of holding down a full-time position before accepting any offer. I would appreciate hearing from cancer survivors how they are handling their employment situation, especially if they are out of work. Please feel free to drop me a line.

In the meantime,  I plan to apply for part-time and temporary positions for now, and the college course will complete as scheduled.

Update May 31, 2012: Finally! Someone from the Health Care Clinic calls me back while I was out job-hunting. A staffer left a telephone number and extension for me to call to get information about my appointment date and time. When I call, however, I get an answering machine saying they are either dealing with another patient or away from their desk. WHAT?! I left a message on the answering machine to call me back. A call-back has confirmed a time to see a skin surgeon. I’ll keep you posted through updates on this page.

Update June 22, 2012: The plastic surgeon at Toronto East General removed the last of the mole, and has my final biopsy reports. All negative. Huzzah!

……if I can only get rid of this meibomian cyst that just popped up. Yeesh. Never a boring moment at Chez David

Update June 26, 2012: Another reason why we need a computer system that shares patient data between doctors in Ontario: I just received a phone call from the dermatologist office who sent me to the plastic surgeon, asking if I have gone to that plastic surgeon yet. WHAT? Health Minister Deb Matthews really needs to work on this. On second though, heck with that.  I could probably write one for the Ontario government. Hire me!

Lights! Camera! Hire Me!

In my last blog post, I mentioned the last time I looked for work was in the early 1990s, before the Internet became a part of our lives. In those days, all you were armed with as a job-seeker was a resume, head-hunters (common in IT employment), friends, newspaper want-ads, and persistence.

Well, the Internet has changed all that. You can order a pizza online. You can download a movie or your favorite TV show online. You can pay your bills online. At my last place of employment, we used the Internet for EDI (electronic data interchange) and logging in from home using a VPN client. The way we look for work now has also changed because of the Internet. I already mentioned that I used Workopolis, Monster and TorontoJobShop to apply for jobs online and have a LinkedIn profile. However, I’m still out of work, and it was time to take the job search up to a new level. This level came in the form of YouTube, home of cats playing the piano and future singing and acting stars who think they have talent. Whether they have talent or not is left up to those watching. I have seen some cringeworthy moments, but those moments are not the subject of today’s blog post.

My efforts in my job search were getting me interviews and leads to places where I could apply for open positions, but I felt it was not enough, since I am still unemployed.  I mentioned in my last post about “throwing the playbook out” and trying my best to stand out from the rest of the crowd as a potential hire. After all, that’s what Career Foundation was pushing in their workshops: market yourself, sell yourself, rise head and shoulders above the pack. This blog and the videos on Google+ were a start, and as I said from the beginning, YouTube was the next logical step. It is the 800 pound gorilla of independently-generated and mass-consumed social media content. If I could get a video on there, I felt, on paper at least, it would help my job search.

I did some research on what to do before making the video. One part of the research was to watch other people’s videos on Youtube who were also looking for work. I discovered that many do not dress up properly. Some people in their videos were wearing street clothes. Some were wearing clothes no one in their right mind would wear on the street. I looked out a suit and tie from the closet to wear for my video, since this was just like getting ready for an interview, but in reverse. Instead of going to the office for an interview, someone from that office is coming to see you on video.

I’ll tell you right now, it’s tough making a video like this. Even though I keep myself up to date with Internet skills, since it is both a hobby and a part of my work as a 20-year Information Technology professional. I never really got the social media part of it. I tried to maintain a Facebook page but, embarrassing as it sounds, I only have one contact on it. One. Person. My neighbour. I don’t post my vacation photos or my attempts to sing on MSN. I’m not an introvert, but I’m also not a “Look at me! Look! Look!” type of person. I let my reputation and the facts about me (including my resume) speak for me.

I’m also very shy about having my picture taken, and admit I’m not very photogenic. I have been described by a friend, “in a good way” (???), of having the features of an anime character: large eyes, big Diedre Barlow glasses, and a round face. Nevertheless, if I wanted to get attention focused to my job search, I had to get past that discomfort and make this video to promote myself, and draw attention to my job search.

I used a Logitech Ultra Vid webcam that I normally use for MSN to record the video, and it took many, many, MANY takes. I initially read from a Notepad text file, but after reviewing the first video takes, I sounded robotic and I was not looking at the camera. I decided to “wing it” instead, but adding an apology at the beginning of the video for sounding nervous and tense. Because I downgraded my internet access to the cheapest one with a bandwidth cap (since I am out of work), I had to compromise on the video quality so the end result looked a little grainy. The auto-correcting of the lighting caused the video to brighten and darken a few times as well.

It took me an hour, sitting in that suit and doing the takes over and over and OVER again, to record that video. In the end, I was very pleased with the finished work and used my Google+ account to seamlessly connect and upload the video. I added search metatags to improve the chances of the video being spidered. It was my very first Youtube content creation, and even though it was for a job search, it was a fun experience and somewhat self-liberating. The YouTube video can be seen at

Maybe I’ll go back and try my Facebook page again. Don’t expect to see any vacation photos or my singing attempts any time soon, though!

Thanks for reading!


From then to now, in a single blog post.

Once upon a time, this statue and I had something in common, minus the pigeon droppings. Both of us had somewhere to go every morning. Both of us had a job. For me, that ended on December 30th 2009. I worked in the Information Technology field for 20 years, 17 at my last job. I was a computer operator, then a programmer, later a system administrator and analyst. I have experience with SAP and the IBM Iseries midrange computers. I participated in six major IT projects, mostly migration ones, and one Y2K initiative. I also did double-duty handling user requests about their personal computers for three months until we finally hired a permanent network administrator to take over.

I won’t go into the events leading up to my current unemployment. That’s inappropriate to post on a blog and best discussed one-on-one in a job interview.  This story is not about my past employer: this is about me looking for work for over two years.

What I can tell you, honestly, was that I was not fired. I was not asked to leave. I was not escorted off the premises like Charlie Sheen’s “Bud Fox” was near the end of the movie, “Wall Street”.

I can tell you that the end of my employment was on the very best of terms, and it closed a chapter in my life to my satisfaction.

I can tell you I helped my former employer and co-workers with any issue that came up during the six months that followed, without asking for money.  I don’t believe in burning bridges and I’m a good person when it comes to helping others.

I can also tell you it did me a world of good. I lost a lot of weight (about 45 pounds), got back in touch with myself, and re-aligned my worldview and my priorities to something a normal person is supposed to have.

Nevertheless, I was unemployed, and needed to find work. The last time I looked for work was in the early 1990s. That was a different world then. There was no easy access to the Internet, no social media sites like Facebook or LinkedIn. There were a lot more job openings to choose from. All you needed to have was the newspaper classifieds, a few printed resumes, persistence, and your references. Your resume pretty much spoke for you as an employee. If you had an impressive work history and accomplished some amazing things during your career, you generally had no trouble finding a job even in the toughest of times.

Flash forward to 2009. There’s not as many job openings since the recession, but there’s a lot more unemployed people looking for work. In between searching the classifieds and going on interviews, I took some workshops at Career Foundation in Toronto to get some job search tips and pointers. I soon learned the way you look for work changed, and I’ll admit it’s not something I like. It’s not about your resume any more. I was told you had to sell yourself, market yourself, network. Though career coaching, I learned using action words in my resumes would catch the attention of the person in charge of hiring for the job opening. Your resume had to be a certain font size and style and no more than a certain number of pages or it was tossed in the recycle bin. All of this was part of the gospel we job-seekers had to follow in this New World Order, or remain unemployed.

Don’t get me wrong: those workshops were helpful, since it gave me an idea of what to expect. What it did not do was improve my chances of getting more interviews, let alone landing a job. Despite putting a lot of effort into the job search and networking with friends, family, and former-coworkers, I was getting nowhere fast.

But there is the Internet and it did offer new ways to look for employment. I registered on the following job search sites:

  • Torontojobshop
  • Workopolis
  • Manpower
  • Monster
  • Careerdoor
  • Careerbuilder
  • Thingamajob
  • Torontojobs
  • Drake

to apply for open positions offered by many companies. I also created a LinkedIn profile containing my work history, which helped me connect to other professionals. I also went to various social sites like Meetup (which turned out to be an absolute disaster) for networking through meeting groups devoted to job searching. Believe me, it’s no joke when people say, “a job search has to be treated like a real job”. I spent nearly the same number of hours looking for work each day as I did in my last job.

I also learned what the expression “jobless recovery” really meant. The economy is improving but companies are not hiring as often as they used to. Those still employed are being asked to do more work to cover for those positions that were downsized in 2008 and 2009. It felt like I was hitting a brick wall at every turn. Nothing was working, no matter what I tried.

Despite the frustration I felt, I was not raised to be a quitter. On September 6th 2011 I decided to “throw the playbook out”. What I learned over the last two years to do in my job search was pitched out the window. I widened my job search to include job openings outside the IT field. It did not matter what the position was — floor sweeping, customer service, vacuum cleaner salesman, accounting clerk, even scooping up dog droppings in a park (of which I was told I was overqualified for) — I used the contact information listed in the want ad to either make a phone call or send in my resume. After an interview at Rogers for an equipment testing position, a fellow job-seeker at a Lawrence Square Tim Horton’s showed me how to safely use Kijiji and Craigslist as part of my job search. It brought in many more interviews, and even came close to landing me some work. The only reason those interviews did not strike paydirt was because I was required to spend between $500 and $1000 on equipment, training and a license. I didn’t want to risk spending a lot of money on a job position I might have second thoughts about doing down the road.

I did spend money on updating my job skills, however. After many failed attempts to get funding from Second Career for some computer courses, I enrolled in a Visual Basic .NET 2010 computer course at George Brown College out of my own pocket. The course will be finished on May 26th, 2012.

Now we are coming to the end of my story. We live in the age of social media, so I decided to create my own online content. I recorded a few videos and placed them on my Google+ site. The videos explained my situation regarding my unemployment and why I would be a valuable asset for any company looking for new employees. While that hasn’t landed me a job yet, it did get the attention of many people offering words of sympathy, encouragement, and job search tips. This gave me the confidence to soldier on.

As for this blog, it is the latest addition to a job search web that spans across job search engines, social media sites, and message boards, a web two years in the making. But you’re probably asking at this point, “what is the blog all about?”.

For those who are looking for new employees, it shows what I’ve accomplished in my work history using links to my LinkedIn and Google+ pages, before I arrive at any interview. It also shows the effort taken to find work over the last two years. I am willing to do any kind of work, as long as I have the soft and hard skills required for the position. An interview will determine if that is the case, and I invite any hiring manager or employment recruiter reading this to contact me if there is a job opening I can send my resume to.

For myself, it’s a form of self-evaluation and positive reinforcement. One evening, I experienced an upsetting event on my way to a Meetup job search seminar held at Drake. There was an elderly man in a wheelchair just outside the Dundas subway station exit pleading for money so he can buy his medication. My heart was breaking at this sight, but it also made me ask myself if I was trying my very hardest to find a job, and if anything I’ve overlooked would lead me to the same fate that man is now in. It’s a doubt I’ve had for some time, but now that I’ve had a chance to write down and review the history of my job search in this blog post, I can finally answer, “Yes, I really tried, and then some”.

Getting back to that statue at the beginning of the post, the blog is an example of not being stuck in a frozen state, not being able to move or adapt like that statue. As long as I keep trying new things and keeping an open mind, there is always a chance to bring this journey to a happy ending.

Expect to see more posts in this blog where time permits. In the meantime, wish me luck!